OH MY GOD!

So far I've finished the penciling for the first page and the first page of the plot twist. Since the twist comes chronologically before the first page I mistakenly worked on that before I came to my senses and realized that I by the time I got there I should have improved in art. So this page has nine panels and it's pretty beastly, but it's flashbacks so I used a direct reference for each one. I didn't really leave that much room for text though. This might be a problem. The bigger problem is how I'm going to color it. My options are greyscale prismacolor markers, color pencil, or try photoshop. Photoshop would look way more authentic, but I'd have to learn to use it.

I also have started on the second page, which will only be two panels, but includes a full body and a pretty generic and plain background.

I feel like cleverness is something greatly admired by children, but it loses dominance in our minds as we grow older. I know that being clever is a good trait to have, but I question my mental flexibility. It requires cycling through many options and ideas in one's head before picking the one that "feels right". If I'm going to grow up in the real world I'll have to wave goodbye to this sheltered life. I don't think I'm suited for anything too cut-throat. I'm willing to work, but I'm not willing to cheat. What worries me is that I might become the person that is willing to do anything to get ahead. I don't want to sacrifice character for status, but status is associated with more instant gratification.

I took the Art History exam today. It wasn't as bad as I expected, I really only want a 3 to make Boehler happy. I doubt I got anything higher. I went to sleep when I got home and had nightmares about the subject. I don't know why, it was scarier in my dreams, and I had already gotten it over with. I don't know if I can really call it a nightmare though, it was mostly just exciting. After the test I think I saw Alex trying out for drum major, if that was him then he was really flamboyant. I have a field trip "tomorrow" which will get me out of class tomorrow and Friday. I doubt I'll go Friday, but I might take the day off to study for AP Statistics. By study I mean learn, since I am a huge failure.

I think one of the signs that I haven't really progressed is that I have a crush on the same guy I did when I was in junior high, despite not having seen him in forever. There was this brief thing with another guy, but I came back. I think I just really miss junior high. It was a pleasant surprise, after being treated like shit throughout the lower grades it was nice to find both teachers and classmates that believed in me and kind of expected something out of me. No one is competent at this school, which is why I want to do something nice for the few teachers that are. They include Boehler, Mr G, and Godsey. I'm not ready for college.

I chose UCSD. My neighbor and some of my friends are giving me shit for it, but I am kind of apathetic at this point. It's enough for me to have made it into an Ivy League, I'll be successful even if I end up at a community college. They haven't received my FAFSA yet, and that's because I'm retarded and chose UofSD rather than UCSD as a listing. Anyway, it's clear now and they'll get my info. I'm not getting any money obviously, other than my Regents, but they still need info for me to progress. They're one of the later UCs in terms of starting the school year. Maybe that should make me happy, but I'm really just anxious to get everything over with.

I got the print editions of Gunnerkrigg Court: Orientation, and The Runaways. I wouldn't have bought them without the discounts, but that was before I knew what they looked like. The hardcover editions look very legit and durable. Gunnerkrigg is the size of a typical novel, thought a bit more square like. As a result the comic is really scaled down. However I like the portability and it's doesn't lose much except a few cut off bubbles. It's only the first 14 chapters, which I thought would last me forever but I sped through it. I look forward to the second volume, though it'll be a while :(

The Runaways is much larger, the pages are larger than the standard for individual issues. I love it because it's all of The Runaways right before it got not-so-great. I like a few of the later episodes, but they're just episodes. The first volume was a whole story with constant intensity. The rest feels like it has nothing tying it together. I miss Alex and Gert. Though Victor is a cool character, I didn't really like Xavin because it felt like s/he was just there to take the lesbian character away, I understand s/he's different now, but I didn't really get the back story. Also, I miss Adrian Alphona. I don't understand why they're reworking the old issues when the originals are beautiful.

I also have the AP Art History test tomorrow. I should go study for my 2. I've gotten really overweight, so I'm trying to make it part of my morning ritual to do some cardio before showering. Hopefully it'll come as naturally as doing my make up after two years or so.

Now it's between UCLA and UCSD
The problem is my vanity. I've been told by a few people that they're surprised by how smart I am, and that they really wouldn't consider me that impressive. I didn't really care until now, because I didn't really know that people thought of me like that. I guess that's what made me want to get into a good school. Yet I don't have the money for Cornell. UCLA is the next best option if I were to go on ranking, but UCSD might be better in terms of lower competition and research opportunities. Plus at UCSD I get Regents and I'll know a few people going there. The fact that I care so much about what other people think of me is seriously confusing, I want to go to a well ranked school because I want the prestige. Yet going to a high ranked school also means more recognition from graduate schools.

On the other hand going to the slightly lower school may not help either. While I think UCSD is great for my major, I also think that competition will be lower than that in UCLA. On the other hand graduate schools might not consider me over someone from UCLA or Cornell. I like the idea of UCSD overall though. I visited today and I think if I went there's I'd have to spend my summer learning to skateboard and not be a fat ass.

Being fought over may be nice, nasty, or both. In the end neither the winning nor losing party cares about the prize, it's the thrill of winning that is sought after. So the trophy, plastic or gold, is loved less and less each day after the conquest.

I think I might finish the CAS portfolio on time. I also think I might ask Godsey if I can take the AP Spanish test, because I suck.

I'm pretty emo right now. I guess that might be good otherwise I wouldn't be updating. My aunt came over and we went to Las Vegas. I met a grand uncle who seems really cool and has a daughter only four years older than me. The amount of food that went into my mouth is obscene, so I probably gained a few million pounds. I hate Las Vegas to be honest, but my aunt made it bearable. Hopefully we will go on a longer trip over the summer.

The UCLA vs UC Berkeley debate still rages, I might go to CAL day on the 18th. I hope I go alone, I can't stand traveling with my dad. I hate how my dad goes on and on about how having kids was the worst thing to happen in his life. I understand that I'm a huge burden, but it's annoying to have to hear that every fucking day of my life. It's better than the alternative though. Baby Pishi essentially told him to stfu about it, even if it was around his children. I guess being unconditionally honest is a good trait, but it still makes me feel like shit. I shouldn't feel like shit though, because I could have turned out so much worse. It's probably pure luck that I'm in the position I am right now: deciding between a million awesome schools and planning for my future, something I didn't think I'd actually have a few years ago.

I guess I've learned that accomplishment doesn't change where you stand with the people you care about. I haven't been treated any differently for turning my grades around. I have learned that accomplishment matters to strangers and acquaintances, people who you have yet to develop a real relationship with. Anyway, the moral of my life is that I shouldn't bother trying to please any other than myself, because they won't really care anyway. Still, I'm trying to get into premed programs, so I guess I'm pretty stupid since I don't follow my own advice.

W/E FML

I have a friend who likes movies based on their special and visual effects. I can't even call that shallow because most movies have such basic plots and so little innovation that liking a movie for its plot would be even more shallow. That being said, I saw Being John Malkovich in TOK. That class gave me so much trouble at the beginning of the year. I knew it'd turn around for me in the end, but I thought it would turn around for everyone else as well. Turns out that some of my friends ended up getting screwed while I got an A. It wasn't fair, but no amount of protesting really helped. I'm so ready to get out of this school. I think junior high was more the best years of my life than high school. Everyone seemed to have lost a few points off their IQ once they got to high school. Most of the teachers were beyond salvation and though it got better as the years progressed I can honestly say that I've only had six teachers who were effective at teaching in these four years. I hope this situation is exclusive to my school. In junior high I only had one really ineffective teacher, my eight grade science teacher, and even then I can say that he would be " average" in my school now.

I also don't want to attend my graduation. Not because I go to a craptastic school, but because I think it's kind of pointless and I hate sitting in one spot just doing nothing. Mickey convinced my dad to make me attend, but on the day of graduation I think I'll just tell him I don't want to go. It's not like anyone else is coming, and you don't even get your diploma there.

Yesterday, I volunteered at Kaiser. Guys were acting strange again. I notice that when I do get hit on it's never just once in a day, but several times in the same day. Of course, it doesn't happen everyday-far from it. Also, it seems to happen when I think I look the ugliest, but I always think I look ugly. But maybe it has nothing to do with me, maybe it's like a hormone cycle for men. Instead of having PMS there's just a time of month/random time interval when they decide to act like creepers.

Or maybe I'm just stunning.

Anyway, Baby Pishi will come over Friday. Natalie got back from Grand Assembly today and hopefully I'll have passover dinner with her.

I don't know when or if this happened. But I heard someone say that when someone asks what issue matters least to you, without giving you options to choose from, it's impossible to give the topic you care least about because your brain is wired to give one of the things you've recently thought about. I think I might have been dreaming when I heard this so the science prefacing the statement may just be BS, but I wonder if it's true. Maybe its just impossible because there are so many things we dont care about that we dont really not care about one more than the other.

I got into Cornell, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and other UCs. Brown and Stanford rejected me while Johns Hopkins put me on the waiting list. It's between UCLA and Berkeley for me though I'm having trouble deciding. Every time I think I'm leaning one way I automatically thing of the benefits of going to the other. I should submit my SIRs before break ends though. How lame are breaks in high school? Well, at least traditional track. I hate having only one week off. I hate thinking about the future. Makes me feel like I'm going to screw up. Maybe I shouldn't try to be a doctor, even my dad doesn't feel like supporting the idea anymore, and I only entertained the idea because of him. Yet what else is there to do. A pharmaceutical researcher makes significantly less than a general practitioner or a surgeon, and I can't imagine myself doing anything else. I wish for security, but I don't want to grow up yet.

I'm afraid I haven't changed.
I know my world around me has changed significantly since I last wrote. But I wonder if I'm more or less the same person. I think I am, and that depresses me.
"Don't ever change" is what I used to say to those who I admired, afraid that a tweak in their behaviors would tangle the fabric of awesomeness from which they were woven. Never have I thought of myself as perfect, but I know change can work both ways. Still, I'm afraid that if I haven't changed for the worse then I've experienced stagnation.
The only quality I've seen emerge within the last four years is that I've "gotten my act together" which means I bought in to the bullshit school system and started getting good grades. So far I've been good at it. I guess that's a start, though I might not be proud. Change in others is easier to see than change in oneself, but I haven't exactly been updating this journal in high school. I can barely track the major events of my life.

I guess I'll point out now that my bitch of a mother is back to ruin my life. She's been resuming custody with my brother but I've refused to go, mostly citing my inability to be assed by her lack of stable lifestyle. Hopefully I recorded that she left in early June.

Records are nice to have. Many a time have I regretted not updating regularly, but I hope that eventually I will find enough regrets to motivate me to take action and record my life on this livejournal. I've stopped reading the records, but that's because I feel that they don't give a big picture.

Anyway. School is almost half done. I've applied to Cornell, Brown, Johns Hopkins, Stanford, and half the UCs. It's time for financial aid applications though Cornell's has been due for a while.

I think the last game I talked about was Kingdom Hearts. I've since played FFVII, FFVIICC, and FFVI.

Flute is going ok, but after getting a grasp on that one nocturne I stopped practicing the piano, I've tried to find another piece to inspire me but so far I can only blame school and my lack of will for the interruptions.

I heard Micheal Dwong got kicked out of Berkeley for getting a D in Art History, which is so depressing because he is a genius, and I don't use that word lightly.

I drive a Honda Civic now because my scooter is dead, again.

It's like there can't be an "us" if there isn't a "them". Like there isn't a point of sticking together, being a group, if there's no one to be better than or fight against.

I've got to admit that I hate racist/sexist jokes. Most of them aren't funny, but they get a laugh just because they're offensive. Yet I don't speak out against it because I'm just trying to be part of the group. I'd feel weird speaking out, only because I don't feel this is funny, but everyone else does. Maybe I'm being to sensitive, but I think I'd rather just go back to being an outcast, if this is the only group I have a choice of assimilating with.

Last day of break :(

I still have to finish my English packet, figure out wtf to do for TOK, edit all my papers and somehow get them on to word or a text editing program that doesn't suck. I also need to clean the house because it is dirty.

I know I'm going to hate school this year. I'm not even remotely excited to find out my schedual because it's obvious for the most part, and I know who is going to be in most of my classes.
It's going to look something like this

0-Art History Online/Spanish 5
1-Theory Of Knowledge
2- History of the Americas
3-Stats/English
4-Stats/English
5-free?
6-free?
8-Biology
And I'll also sign up for Solar Auto on Saturdays because I really don't want a life.
I also know pretty much who is going to be in 5/7 of my classes, and it won't be too hard to guess the other two either.

And my scooter is broken :( so I really have no idea how I'll get to school, because I can't drive, and my dad decided to forgo getting a bus pass.
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So anyway, I spent the majority of the day yesterday trying to find out how to change the ingame music on my PSP. I didn't succeed. The closest I got was getting the VHS music, but that is completely pointless because the PSP ALREADY allows you to listen to music while in the main menu. Gah, annoyance.

So I've also been reading Video Game Recaps. The Final Fantasy 8 one is hilarious. 10...not so much, but it's still good.
Video Game Recaps

Rich Text is annoying

( Movies that sucked )

So Kaiser at the Med-Surg floor was pretty cool. The OR sucks though, there's nothing to do and they won't let me see anything. The manager keeps saying she'll let me see something, but I know she won't. Also, at the end of the day there's always a patient transportation that takes 5 times the amount of time a regular transportation takes and my dad get pissed off having to wait.

I got my scooter permit. Yup. I'm going to die young. Natalie came over and she rode her goped while I was on the scooter, it was pretty fun, but I think I've gone deaf from hearing the buzzing from the goped. The previous day I had gotten comfortable at 25, but I tried not to ride up in that area today. We're also getting 1998 Honda Civic, which is pretty cool. I still can't test for my license until the 11th of September, but I'll test later since my dad will be out of town that week.

My PSP is awesome, I'm playing ffvii and ix now, I like vii so far, but it's mostly been my neighbor that plays it.

I'll also been hanging out with my neighbors a lot this summer, but it's never just my neighbors, there's usually one other person with them and usually there's three or more with them.  What sucks is that they're really cool but they're all seniors so I won't see them again after this summer.

A lot more happened the past weeks, but I 'm just posting this to get back in the habit.

I got a God of War PSP from Best Buy! It's everything I ever dreamed of and more ;___;
I didn't really care for the red color of the psp at first, but it's grown on me. Here's the deal. My dad raised an issue with paypal about the psp from ebay since it's been more than three weeks now, but they're giving the seller some more time to respond, until August 4th. My dad is pretty certain that the seller won't respond, since she hasn't responded to the one asking for his money back. If she does ship that psp however, we'll return this one to Best Buy.

So I've already installed cfw on to it, but that's pretty much it. It came with God of War (obviously), and Superbad. So I've been playing God of War and it's really fun. I fail at having sex with women though, I don't get the arrow command. The graphics are amazing, and the whole game in general is amusing. You can use your allies' dead corpse as paper weights and the liberal amounts of gushing blood are to die for. 

I finished Kingdom Hearts and I found it to be better than Kingdom Hearts 2.

Orientation at Kaiser was on Friday, I just found out what floor I'd be on and got to see the charge nurse's face. It was a pretty lame orientation, but a hell of a lot better than staying in class, which I'll have to do Monday :(  I also hope I'll be able to get there early enough on Tuesday in order to ask the information desk if I can volunteer after the "class" is over. And Sanchez still didn't give me the card, but he assured me it was alright. I don't think it is, I'd rather have the card.

I also need to find a ride for the days my dad is gone.

Well, other than my awesome PSP, not that much is going on. I have a test tomorrow, but there's no way I'll study. 

I could write about my life until this point, but I think I'll write about Avatar instead.

I've got a test tomorrow that I should study for.     ._.
Anyway.

This week was school, and it was boring. I quarter of the people there are from Canyon this time around. I don't really talk to them though. Only Kimberly came back, and she didn't really want to come back. The review is pretty boring, I space out 100%  of the time, but I got a 100, a 70, and a 96 on the last tests. The average is now 88.67.  I'm relying on my memory to recall what was encoded a year ago. Good strategy? I could care less. I just have such apathy for that class.I've got to get a bunch of paperwork cleared and take a bunch of tests to prove I'm immune and ready to work. The up side is that we may go to the Modern Body exhibit to see real dissected people .

Our teacher is kind of a bitch, but she doesn't mean to be, and I think it's great. Also, the drama has already begun. It doesn't include us this time though. There's this fourty year old who acts eighteen and a group of young ladies who hate him. The fourty year old isn't that bad, he interjects with stupid comments, but I space out in class anyway. The girls got so annoyed with him that they called him out after he made a comment one time. That was probably more disruptive than the guy's comments. It's pretty lol. Like last time there's no real justified person.

I had a birthday party, we got a Venom pinata. Natalie came first and brought me 18000000 bottles of thai tea and a few dark chocolate bars. Then Jordan walked in to my house with Melody. She got me a journal, a bookmark, and a pen. Melody got me a photo album. I wasn't until I saw some of the pictures in it that it hit me that the seniors were leaving. I'm really gonna miss them :(
I don't know what to do with the journal yet. I've kind of gotten used to typing up my entries. Jordan suggested using it for notes, but it's too nice for that. And I don't take notes. I'll figure something out, I remember having various urges to go out and buy journals for random reasons. Actually, I do have an idea. I'll use it as a writing journal, because I'm too nice to subject the internets to my writing. We started setting up the n64 to play Pokemon Stadium 2, and I think it was Elaine/Monica who arrived next. I think Monica and Elaine played stadium with Jordan and Melody. Then Tim came and he brought over his Wii. I was kind of worried that he'd be bored. Danny, Gabe, Rebecca, and Hannah came over last...I think. The party was basically playing Pokemon and Brawl, and me stuffing food down everyone's throats. We then smashed the pinata and no one really ate the candy. The cake was two cheesecakes and a tiramisu. One cheesecake and one tiramisu were finished, and we have a cheesecake in the fridge.

Now I know I'll complete KH before summer ends, and Tim says that as a 17 year old I can legally get M rated games, w00t. Unfortuneately the person my dad bought the PSP from has not responded to his emails so I don't know when I'll be getting the PSP. Hopefully it's not too long because we're driving to Vegas on the 12th and I will die of boredom without something to do.

 

A lot happened this week

Before the trip I got salmoned. It was right after the last update. It was actually an LJ user's boyfriend that reached me since he was trying to figure out who was IMing his girlfriend. He got me instead and we talked about my plans to  conquer Antarctica and for a dictatorship. Once we figured out what was going on he talked about being in college and how you learn to be independent. It was a good experience because I got some wisdom from an older person. So it's a cool program.

On Monday I basically tried to waste time the best I could before leaving for the airport at 2:30 PM. Delta started enforcing the whole escort for unaccompanied minors...and charged 200$ for it. That was bull because my dad didn't even know we had to pay that until he was at the check in counter. So he was pissed off and made it known to the clerk. As much as I'd like to be on my dad's side, I have to admit it's kind of his fault for choosing Delta. He knew that Delta is cheap, has bullshit policies, and nickel&dimes people for every little thing, but he chose Delta anyway. Hopefully we won't fly Delta anymore, because the escort was more of a pain than anything else even after paying the fine. Anyway, we got there at 10 PM, which was later than I expected. We pretty much went straight to bed once we got to Ranu Pishi's house.

The next day we went out for a walk and just hung out. We also went to Starbucks and I ordered the chocolate-iest thing on the menu. That night we also went to a birthday party with a bunch of sweets >__> they were delicious! And I was kind of too hyper to fall asleep. My brother, Bijoy, and Maya enjoyed each others' company quite a bit. They mostly played on the computer and quoted Charlie the Unicorn or some Soulja Boy parody. My brother kept using bad language, which pissed pretty much everybody off. At least when I was that age I didn't curse in front of adults. That's pretty much obvious. Lola is cute.

On Wednesday Baby Pishi came over to take us to Colorado Springs. We stopped by at the library and I got a mini Flight comic and Go Tell it on the Mountain. Bijoy was pretty eager to read the whole trip...which didn't happen. I really liked Go Tell it on the Mountain though I only got one hundred pages in to it. The style is amazing. We went on a walk through Baby Pishi's property with Diesel (now called Boro Kocca...no idea how to spell that). We saw the llama farm and stared at the llamas for a while. Then the owner came and told us about them, Baby Pishi stayed back because she knew that Kocca would attack anything it wanted to. It was a good call because two dogs accompanied the owner. We had hamburgers for dinner and went to see Kung-Fu Panda which was really good. I loved the graphics, especially the pool scenes and the 2D animation. That night I got really sick and bugged my aunt to help me out. We stayed awake while I tried to get over my headache and nausea. She gave me a headache pill but encouraged me to throw up if I felt like it. I did feel like throwing up but whenever I bent over the toilet I didn't feel like throwing up anymore. So I was stuck with either bowing for the rest of the night or forcing it out. She suggested that I brush the back of my throat and I was like: lol@bulimic teckniks...but  I tried it and it kind of helped,  I didn't throw up much though. So she later gave me an anti-nausea pill and as soon as it hit my esophagus I threw up everything I ate for dinner I did feel better afterwards and we slept in the same room in case I got sick again.

Thursday we were supposed to go fishing, but the place we were going to closed down so we drove around looking for stuff to do. We stopped at a park and walked around a bit while my brother, Bijoy, and Maya played on the equipment. The equipment in this park was pretty interesting, there was a movable donut on an incline that people would balance on, a see-saw that had a lot of flexibility, and twisty pipe with a seat, a digging instrument, and a bunch of other traditional equipment. We then got ice cream and went back home. The kiddies watched the 1st Chronicles of Narnia movie. I had finished the book in Spanish on Tuesday. I watched most of My Fair Lady with my aunt, but it was pretty late by that time and I went to bed before I could finish it. A spider crawled on Baby Pishi's face earlier that day. It was pretty scary. The kiddies were also mooning each other...weird. My aunt gave me a roll of rice paper.

We woke up early Friday morning so we could make it to Ranu Pishi's house in time for Bijoy's math lesson. Ranu Pishi and I went on another walk, but with Lola this time. She bit her tongue while chasing rabbits. :( Raj Uncle gave me an Indian flute (a bansuri) for my birthday (Ranu Pishi gave me 50$ :)). We also went out for ice cream and...mine wasn't that yummy, but whatever. As much as I tried I could not get to sleep until 12AM on Saturday. I got up at 3:30 and got ready to head to the airport. It was pretty gay because we missed out connecting flight because we had to wait for our stupid escorts. The next flight was only one hour later though, which was lucky for us. The other girls who needed escorts had missed a flight and had to wait five hours for their next one. I started working on the Pygmalion packet, but I just did what I could without the play in front of me. On the plane from Salt Lake City to John Wayne I drew a bit after working on my packet. We had to wait at the gate for my dad to pick us up. Then we went to In N Out for burgers. My dad went to the bank for some cash and a woman backed up in to him. Settling the matter took quite a while. Once we got home I fell asleep and messed up my room. I pledged to not work at all, which I'm very good at.

So today there is a Cosmos marathon on and I'm catching bits and pieces of it. we have the DVD set which runs without commercials but we're very lazy people and prefer to watch it on TV instead. The Spongebob marathon is also on, so we're alternating between Carl Sagan and Squarepants.

Tomorrow I have to go to school.

Speaking of school I managed all As this semester, w00t. It was lucky, but I do think I deserved it. Many were borderline but I only got an A- in Psych, which is lol. 
I want a PSP, but I'm a bit confused on where to start modding it. I'm thinking that I might even hard mod cuz I'm getting kind of confused on the requirements for the tutorials I'm looking at. Maybe I'll hardmod the slim battery and softmod a phat battery I'll buy from a store.

Well, Eric is still being weird, but it's easier to ignore him now that I only have to ignore one SN instead of blocking a million. He said that six people told him to stop IMing me, which I doubt. The only people who might say that are Jordan, Nishad, and maybe Natalie. I know Jordan didn't, Nishad probably has him blocked still, and Natalie rarely goes online. Whatever, I just hope he stops annoying me before I get used to being stalked.

It's my birthday on the 28th, and I was thinking of getting a DS, which most people supported. However, Khaled kind of sold me on the PSP because you don't need as much to mod it. The problem is that I'd probably get a slim, and a slim battery cannot easily be made in to a pandora's battery. So I'm thinking that I'd also need to buy a phat battery, but I don't know where to buy a backing so that the battery doesn't fall out of the slim. I'd also need to buy a memory stick, but that's a given. Since my iPod died I think the PSP would be a good replacement, and I could also play games from other systems. I remember lusting after the PSP a couple years ago, but I forgot about it in time, mostly due to the price.

I also finished House, and since it's been out for a while I think it's ok to type without cutting. I can't say I liked it as much as everyone else. Though it was a very emotional ending, most of it didn't make sense within the context of of the show. Why would Amber appear as another girl wearing an amber necklace? It could look like guilt if you squint hard enough at it, but it just seems pointless. Doctor shows are pretty much always inaccurate or contrived...so I don't know why it bugged me in the finale. It just seems like they could have easily figured out what kind of medication she was taking even without breaking in to her house, along with a lot of other stuff. Anyway, House doesn't try to be accurate so I shouldn't criticize on that aspect of it, but it seemed even more contrived within the context of what House usually is.

I finally figured out how to take a brachial pulse. It's only been a year, though to my credit I didn't try until recently. Sanchez still hasn't called me back about the card but I figure I can just talk to him about it in school once I go.
Tomorrow is fathers' day and I got my dad an eBay gift card. It's kind of lame, but hopefully I'll wake up before him tomorrow so I can make him an omelet. Then we're going to see Iron Man yay. Tonight we ate Pho and I got Thai iced tea. I love Thai iced tea.
Then on Monday we're leaving for a week in Colorado. By "we" I mean my brother and I.

This actually happened a while ago, but my mom moved to India, she says it's forever, but my father has doubts. Most people say I should stay in touch and stuff because she's my mother. Yet I can't help feel either happy or indifferent about her departure. The only time I've ever felt sad is when thinking what this is going to do to my father. His job is screwed, a fact which he reminds us of constantly-but we can't do anything about- and having us here just makes it worse for him. That's the only thing I feel guilty about.

Anyway, school is over now. Hopefully I have all As in everything. I can say that i have As in 5 of my classes, and I'm 90% sure that I'll have an A in Calculus.

Now, my summer assignments include:

-outlining 5 chapters of the biology text book
-killing myself
-reading 3 packets of perspective on history and researching the history IA (Sandistas and Contras)
-reading Pygmalion and doing the packet
-writing a draft of the extended essay
-revising the world lit paper
* I also need to get 120 CAS hours somehow

I've already read Pygmalion, or, I at least read the play part. The epilogue was longer than the play itself so I said tl;dr. I've yet to start on the packets or anything. Pettey said she like my world lit paper. I'd really like to believe her, but for some reason I can't take teachers who say they're pleased seriously. I don't know if I'm being realistic or paranoid, but I feel really insecure when I think that they're just saying it because they want to encourage improvement even if it's not there. I think Pettey's not the type to take pity, or at least I hope.


I just got my bio book today. Nishad thinks it'd be nice if Jordan, Krysta, him, and I could work on it together. Speaking of Nishad, Eric is being muy creepy. First of all I know this is pretty much all my fault and I deserve every single thing that's happening to me. However, I'd still like it to stop. He's annoying IRL, so I try to distance myself, but at least he's a little bit more tolerable than when he's online. On AIM he's super annoying so I blocked him, it wasn't serious the first time, but I didn't plan on unblocking him. He made a screename Nishadsathe and asked me to unblock him, so I did. He kept being annoying so I blocked him again, but this time it's pretty bad. He made another SN with my name. Then when I blocked that one he made one called yourface7431 or something like that
and after I blocked that it was yourface7432 and then yourface7433 etc. I finally just unblocked him on his regular SN so I could go back to ignoring his the old fashioned way. Sometimes I feel bad for acting like a douche to him, but he's such a douche in general that I don't feel bad about it after being around him. He even asked Abe and Jordan to ask me to unblock him, which isn't as creepy as the previous thing, but it's kind of awkward dragging other people in to it. I hate him, I can't help it. I hope he just gets over it quick.

I'll finish later.

 

I had a really great day today.

This morning I started out with some awesome science articles on digg, I went to school in a panic because I needed to withdraw money from the bank and make it to school on time. I withdrew the money with a lot of time to spare so I went to Vons and bought jasmine tea, which I am drinking right now. Pretty much everyone was dressed up in the style of 1984, but I wasn't, so I got mistaken for a thought  police  and there was mass hysteria.  In physics the demonstration for the final was two lasers pointing at an Austrian prism which was suspended and rotated by a machine, and was also submerged in a tank of water with a reflective back. The lights were turned off and Moonlight Sonata was playing. I didn't have to analyze anything, but I did anyway because it was fun. The overall effect was really beautiful, MR TRUMBLE IS GOING SOFT. I tried to study a little for the Math SATII, but I found that I had already done every practice test, so I read Fight Club instead.

In APUSH we watched movies, and I tried to pay attention because I thought it might be good review for the SATII, but I ended up not really caring and drawing on myself instead. I also hid Justin's glasses from him and loled as he freaked out while trying to find them. During lunch I heard ska off in the distance and went to go find it. I also found Monica who thought the ska sounded terrible. She joined me in listening to The Pocketeers anyway, and she got really in to the music. The overall performance was great because even though only five band members were up there all the band/drama/groupie kids were cheering them on, dancing around, and otherwise just having a good time. Monica started dancing from the stands, too, but I didn't want to dance because I'm me.  People were throwing food and booing the people near the stage who were having fun, but it didn't seem to deter them at all, they kept having a great time. Sterling was the star of the show, he died a lot.

The Calculus final  started easy  and got harder at the end. It really didn't matter because I'll have an A with a zero on the final. I still sort of tried, sort of. Afterward we played stick wars. It's a really fun game where half the people playing don't know the rules, but are penalized for breaking them anyway, and the half the people who do know the rules are calling each other out on small mistakes.

Then I panicked on the bus ride home because I thought I might not make it to my lesson on time, but I did, and I found out that I am a failure, again. But I'm used to it by now, so it's still a great day.

    I just finished my world lit paper and my glass menagerie commentary revision, and it's about 2AM. I'll do the rest of my homework tomorrow morning. My dad is leaving tomorrow, so it's just my brother and me.

Today Hannah G, Rebbecca, Gabe and Danny came over to give me cake. It was really nice of them. Danny and friends just make random people cakes for no reason. I still have to pay Danny for all the stuff he gave me. Anyway, so they came inside and we talked over cake. My dad was really weirded out by them, but I don't really know why he'd expect me to have friends that even resemble normal at this point.

I got the CPR card thing sort of taken care of I got a hold of Sanchez and he says he'll get back to me. Worst case scenario is that I just get it on my first day of internship class. There is a small problem of getting there though. Most of the time my dad can drive me, but he'll also be gone two days every other week so I'll have to figure out what I'm going to do to get there. I might be able to ask Noel for a ride depending on where he lives and where he's going. I also don't know if I want Kaiser or UCI. UCI is awesome, Kaiser is crap but it's way closer.

The SATIIs are on Saturday and I haven't even started studying for the USH one, and I don't really know how to be honest I've been to busy worrying about math. I think I'm alright on the math, but I wish I had more time to study. I know I can get over a 700 but I want a 800. USH isn't really something to care about since I don't even need history.

School is pretty  much over after the SATIIs. The psych final is a joke even more Mr. Dale. The Calc final is just some extra points, which I don't need at all, I don't take the Physics final. I do have to study for A Doll House's final and maybe review a little for Spanish...maybe ten minutes before we take the test. I don't know what's going on in APUSH.

Goodnight